Heart ache

I dropped Hope off this morning for her first morning at day care. HEART BREAKING!!! She's stayed at Lisa's house a couple of times when I've needed someone to fill in for Mark's Mom, but this will be our regular routine for a while at least. Once a week isn't bad, is it??? Well, she was crying, crying, crying when I left. I walked out the door and I cried. And then I immediately called Mark and told him that HE gets to take her next week. That's only fair, right?? On the way to Lisa's house she insisted that she didn't like Lisa or Kaitlyn (Lisa's 5 year old daughter), which I know is not the truth. She LOVES seeing Kaitlyn at church. Then she said to me, "Mommy...why do you always take me to Lisa's house and leave me?" Knife through the heart!! Certainly being a Mom wasn't this hard on MY Mom, was it?? What Hope doesn't realize is that if there was any possible way that I could be with her 24/7, I would! I'd do it in a heartbeat. But being with other kids her age is good for her and, as much as I don't want to admit it, having time by myself is good for me, too. The other thing Hope doesn't realize is that when she hits about the age of 12, she won't want to have anything to do with me. I should get all of the "I want Mommy" tears on video now so I can show her them in about a decade. LOL

HUGE prayer request for all of you that read this blog. In previous blogs I've mentioned my friends Rachael and Kim who are both battling cancer. I just read Rachael's latest Caring Bridge update and it is NOT good at all. As a matter of fact, I've cried once about it already this morning and I'm about to cry again. The doctors have given her 3-6 months to live. She may not even live long enough to celebrate her little girl's first birthday with her. That breaks my heart. So I think the realization that they have fought as hard as they can has finally started to hit Isaac and Rachael. Please keep them in your prayers. And know that there's a benefit for them at the River Falls Golf course on Saturday. I would urge anyone who can go to attend. The West Wind Supper Club is providing the meal (it's a pasta buffet) and there will be a band and a silent auction. For more info check out the River Falls Journal article at www.riverfallsjournal.com

Time to go for now. Thanks for your prayers and for caring enough about the happenings in our home to keep coming back to read the blog.